Not Unredeemed

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Tired

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Tired.

I almost always see this word as a bad thing. For me it means limitations, that I’m not super woman as much as I want to be. It means I’m human.  I’m learning it means He’s God. I’ve known for years that God is my strength and when I’m weak He’s strong and yada yada yada…. But lately it’s making it’s way from my head to my heart. I KNOW that when I’m tired and at my end – it is my end and the beginning of Him. For all of my tiredness there is an opposite in Him.

Tired of being sick (physically) all fall – tired to the point of not functioning.
Tired of seeing the pain and evil – tired of my heart breaking.
Tired of the Lord revealing things to me I can’t do much about or fix – tired of surrendering it all back to Him.
Tired of fighting my own selfishness.

And yet – I’m thankful He’s not tired of me. For every time my heart breaks, it’s only because His is too.  Fighting my selfishness means that it’s dying. That He is living more. With sickness comes compassion and patience. In revelation comes responsibility to pray – utter reliance on Him. For in the end of my understanding begins His. When my heart can’t take it anymore – His is larger. Perhaps tired is a good thing. It keeps me on my knees.

5 Minute Friday Prompt – Tired. Real, raw unedited writing for 5 minutes. Join us over at the Gypsy Momma.

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Author: notunredeemed

Jesus follower, people lover, truth scribbler. Addicted to pain (growth). Passionate about relationships, identity and the transforming power of Christ.

4 thoughts on “Tired

  1. This is such a great post. In our weak and human state, we get tired. This life is just plain hard at times. I too am thankful for a God who never grows tired or weary towards me. Visiting from the 5 Minute Friday!

  2. I don't think we have to fight our selfishness or sins. Just pray about these things and leave them with God. If we look at ourselves we will always get discouraged. Don't be surprised you are a sinner, we all are. God keeps telling me lately not to worry; not to worry about my sins, weight, smoking, and family. Jesus told us this, "Don't worry about anything…" It is the only way to have joy in the Christian walk.I am sorry to hear you have been through tough times. So have I. It's no picnic. There is a lot of illness in my family. I have fibromyalgia but the last few years have been better. Still tired a lot. My husband has a rare form of cancer. He has been sick 21 years. All I can say is we live in a world of sin and suffering and must take Jesus' hand as we walk through. God bless you.

  3. Barbie – AMEN! It's amazing that His never ending strength is available to us as well! Belle, Wow you have had some health struggles! My Aunt has Fibromyalgia and I know how hard that can be! I was laid up for almost 3 weeks from an infection and the allergic reaction I had and I thought I'd go crazy! I can't imagine all the time. I respect you so much!! My immune system is shot from it right now so I am getting every cold that comes along this fall!

  4. Hi, Katie! It's me again! :)Thanks for your email! I can't wait to hear more from you…At this point I'm just dropping a line to ask if you would consider linking to my blog? It's http://thestoryofasoul.com – I've already linked to yours and wasn't sure if you had seen mine yet.Thanks! I hope your Christmas season is beautiful, bright and blessed!!- Jessica

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