Empty, void of something, anything. Empty comes with the connotation that there should be an opposite of empty – full, complete. Empty is a longing and a desire for something in the nothing. Empty is incomplete.

I really dislike ‘incomplete’ when it comes to knowledge. I like to know things. I’m a big picture person, needing to see the overview before I can figure out the details. That’s the problem though ‘I’. I don’t like empty and lack of knowledge because then I can’t control the details, work them out or prepare for them. Empty means I need to trust the Lord.

I recently told a friend, “If this happens I got it. Or if the opposite of that happens I got it. But this in-between, the not knowing – it’s killing me! I can’t do the emptiness of the unknown. With quite wisdom she replied, “maybe that’s the point Katie, YOU can’t do it.” But He can.

In my illusion of control I think I can do it when I see the big picture, I don’t need Him. Praise God for the empty! And for a holy God who will not share His glory with another.